Everything is Nice in Chengdu Except Its Winter

I went to jog last night. It was not cold, but there is clear smog I saw under the lights. Sometimes I could smell pungent odor. I don’t really want to jog in bad and polluted air. …

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Since I started jogging three days ago, it has become the most expected thing in my life. Even it rained last night, I still went out and jogged a while. I feel totally free from worries, doubts, fears, pressure and all negatives go away.That feels so good. Because I jog…

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When I think about dying

If I were going to die in a month or a year, what would I do?

I would go traveling to many many beautiful places, breathing fresh air, laughing hard, stay away from the crowd, die on a peaceful island.

When life does not go…

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I have not jogged for quite a while. I always feel tired after working in the office for 8 hours. I sit in front of the computer all the time because I need to look for potential clients on Linkedin and do some research about companies and countries with computer…

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It was a grueling weekend for me. I stayed up until three o’clock AM in my friend’s apartment. He drank with his friends in a bar and I did not want to go in there because it was too loud and too much smoke. I hate second hand smoke. He needed to work the next day and it did not keep him from staying up late.

I am always wondering why I am not living the life I want. I am not eating well, sleeping well or feeling well for a long time. I know for sure I need deep relaxation and escape from the urban life.

I want to quit my job and live peacefully in a peaceful place. No rush hour, no busy traffic, no politics, no pressure, no fear, no anxiety.

How many people can finally rest in peace?

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I am constantly bothered by noises at night. I am not sure it is from upstairs or not. I did some research on the possible causes of noises. Some articles say the noises may not be caused by people, instead, they are generated by the pipes hitting nearby objects, making…

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I love writing here

I love the simple layout of the Medium writing page. No unnecessary distractions makes it easy to concentrate only on writing. I write only to express myself and share some thoughts and life experience here on Medium. I used to read a book named “opening up by writing it down”.

I believe every single of us needs to express ourselves at times. But sometimes we don’t want to let people around us know what we are going through. We would rather tell strangers.

I slept almost ten hours and I got up feeling better this morning. I listen to a radio station hosted by a psychology consultant. Her voice is soothing and comforting and it makes me feel relaxed and reflect on my own life.

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I can’t rest well at night and I have too many dreams. So I wake up feeling tired in the morning. Only after having breakfast will I feel better.

I am very sensitive to noises and smoke. I take the subway every day and there are people playing videos loud…

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